Jenna sat quietly on the settee, stealing a glance at her blackberry phone.
She silently cursed, "Fuck waiting." Last week's few moments of bliss
were replaced by irrefutable sorrow. If only things aren't that complicated
between her and Jared, she'd probably holding that phone and texting nonstop.
But she can't and she won't. Could it be pride? Could it be fear of the truth? It could be both.
Ironically, sleep seemed to be very distant right now. She already accepted
that fact few hours ago. She looked around the empty room and a DVD case caught
her attention - Hachiko. Suddenly, all the memories she had been trying to
shrug off were back; tempting her to grab that phone and call.
Hachiko started it all. She was down, he was there. She felt
vulnerable, he became her shield. She might have covered the real reason for
her tears by telling everyone that the movie moved her; but Jared knew the
truth. He was the only one who knew her. All the insecurities; all her
grievances - everything.
"Jenna, aren't you sleeping yet?" Elise roused her thoughts. She
sat down the stairs, staring at her friend's bewildered face. "He's not
worth it," guessing the reason for that look, "he wouldn't stand up
for you. He had his priorities straight and you're not part of it." She
knew Jenna had already veered off course even if she wouldn't admit it.
Jared is Jenna's best friend. It was obvious that he shared the same feelings
with her but what complicated things is he's already married.
"I'll be fine, Elise. I just miss his presence. This will pass.
Besides, we already talked and set boundaries. We're just friends,
honest." She looked past Elise when she responded, as if she wasn't really
explaining but was convincing herself. Jenna had already figured it all out;
she's smart after all. But one thing she didn't see coming: when it comes
to love, no one is smart enough.
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